My Little Girl Starts Big School
I’m reviving an old post here as the school year is coming to a close I thought it would be nice to share my feelings from just under a year ago. When your firstborn starts school, emotions can run high. I never expected myself to be the emotional type but Pops starting school left me a blubbering mess…
…I never thought this day would arrive. It was only a few months ago we welcomed our daughter into the world, or so it seems. How did we get here so soon? We’d been so busy over the holidays that I hadn’t really contemplated how I would feel about my little girl starting school. Or maybe I’d kept busy so to distract myself.
I had however been organised and bought all necessary school uniform items at the beginning of the holidays. There was no way I was going to leave it to the last minute, facing packed stores with a 4 year old and a baby in a pram.
You’re starting ‘big school’ soon I would tell her and she would reply with an excited shriek.
The week before the start of term it hit me, hard. My little girl was going to school full time! My little girl was going to be away from me all day, Monday to Friday. My little girl was going to be looking up to someone else for inspiration and guidance. My little girl is growing up way too fast. My little girl isn’t so little anymore. Please slow down. Would the teacher see how special she is the same way I do? Would she miss me at all? Will she make friends? I reminded myself that she is ready for school. She’ll make lots of friends and have lots of fun. She will be fine. I on the other hand wept at the merest thought or mention of school.
The new term started on a Tuesday at her new school so I told my daughter that Monday is her day, she can pick what we do and where we go. I helped with a few suggestions and she picked Chester Zoo. Good choice, I love it there too.
We headed off to the zoo, picnic in bag (again her choice for lunch), pram loaded with coats, umbrellas and suncream (It’s the UK)! It was drizzly but at Chester Zoo you can find plenty undercover and it’s super easy to push a pram around. You could easily spend a whole day there. Later that day the sun came out. My preparation paid off, out came the suncream. I watched in admiration as my daughter played happily on the lawn with my 7 month old son. She is such a smiley girl and again I had to hold back the tears. How long will I have to wait for a day like today. No more out of school holidays fun.
We had so much fun at the zoo and we finally got to see the jaguar. She knows this place well and that there is a shop on the way out. “Mummy can I get something?”. I felt so emotional that I could have let her have anything she wanted at that moment. But I resisted and told her she has £5 to spend. She picked a jelly centipede!
THE FIRST DAY
The day arrived and off we went to school, shiny sparkly new uniform and shoes and a sparkly smile to match. The playground was full of parents excited and yet nervous to wave off their children on their first day. Luckily I could use my son as a distraction and fussed over him in order to remain composed. The doors opened and there stood the teachers we had previously met on an open evening and settling in days. I tried to hold back the tears as we hugged and then I waved her off into class. I watched as she skipped into the arms of the teachers with a huge excited smile across her pretty little face. I had to make a quick exit as the lump in my throat grew at an alarming speed. I saw my friend welling up and as we hugged I really struggled to hold back. I managed to wait till she was out of sight and everyone else until I had a good cry.
I never knew that it was possible to feel so many emotions at one time. Extremely proud, happy, sad, lost, worried and excited. I know she’ll be fine, but she’s my gorgeous little girl, growing up far too quickly, so independent yet so vulnerable and impressionable.
A year on and she is thoroughly enjoying school and doing so well. Which provides me with so much comfort. She does tell me she misses me which is nice too. It certainly gets easier as the year progresses but I do look forward to holidays.
“I look like a rainbow mummy” 🌈 – this one is always my sunshine through the rain. 💕 The school did a colour run today in aid of @clairehouse I volunteered to be a ‘colour thrower’ and luckily the rain held off and the kids had a fab time (so did I) getting drenched in colour. #colourrun #colourrun2017 #colourfulworld #rainbowcolours #funseekingkids #highlightsofhappy #kcacols